Mzansi favorite Nomzamo Mbatha has opened up about her pain and heartbreak after loosing her sister. The actress took to twitter in a series of messages to explain after her sister committed suicide in 2014.
Her sister, Carla, suffered form depression which is a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way.
The Umlilo actress started off by sharing that she was at the recent Nicki Minaj concert in Johannesburg, when her friend showed her a girl who’s very popular on social media.
Her friend said :
2. "See that girl over there? On the day that Carla was found, she posted saying "RIPCarla, I'm so sad your family never loved you enough.."— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
Nomzamo then shared how serious depression is …
3. For those who may or may not know, depression is a mental disease. Anyone who is suffering from it can only see darkness and no tomorrow— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
4. When your soulmate takes their own life, you immediately blame yourself.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
"I could've done more. I should've been home. It's my fault…"
5. With all those feelings of blame, guilt and utter heartbreak that is already self-inflicted.When an outsider says it, you think it's true— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
6. I felt more heartbroken for my aunt who had lost her only child, only for a stranger to announce that "she wasn't loved enough.."— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
7. And then I was broken for myself because Carla's face was the last face I would see before falling asleep, and the very first when I wake— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
8. I wanted to confront her, but then I thought… No.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
Because it is easier for people to speak on things that have NEVER happened to them
9. She has incredible sisters, who are all beautiful. And I envy her. Because I've had to bury TWO of mine.So, yeah.. God bless her.
— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
10. I'm glad she's flourishing, gets compliments everyday and gets to LOVE her sisters.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
Since the rest of us didn't love "enough"
11. I'm sharing this for those who have lost loved ones from suicide.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
It never gets easier. You will blame yourself & others will say things
12. But know this, that you loved them FIERCELY and it was not your battle, but theirs.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
Depression is a DISEASE.. Not a feeling.
Nomzamo revealed that although she’s flourishing in her career, she’s broken inside.
13. I may be on every social media platform postin about all the wonderful things that I'm achieving.— Nomzamo (@NomzamoMbatha) March 23, 2016
But I am broken. A thousand times over
Source : Zalebs
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